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035 Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Thursday, June 25, 2009 11:39 AM
Good day everyone. :D
I can't believe the hols are ending so fast. Well, it only means one month is gone and the O'Levels are drawing closer and closer. Yes I feel the intensity and of course I'm nervous, and scared at the same time.
Scared that I can't achieve my goals
Scared that I can't do well in certain subjects I really want to
Scared that I will disappoint many beloved teachers of mine with my results
Scared that I will feel sorry for myself for not giving my best
Scared that I will be complacent and slack
Hmm, yes I fear many many things, everyone has their own fears right?
Well, I couldn't sleep well last night so I reflected upon many things in life. Studies, friends, teachers, opportunities, etc. I've the epiphany that a lot of my teachers are pinning their hopes on me to score well. They've been slaving themselves teaching me, imparting skills that are essential so that I can score well in exams.
YES! I MUST NOT LET THEM DOWN!
The reflection process only made me realize how fortunate Im in Kranji, where your subject teachers are always available like 7-Eleven whenever you've doubts on anything. They'll always be there to help you and stretch out their helping hand, always spoon-feeding you with answers.
How fortunate~ Naturally, as their student, you wouldn't want to let them down right? We've to really gear up and prove to them that their teaching has been worthwhile all this while and we're definitely capable!
Cut those demoralising moments/I-don't-feel-like-studying attitude/I'm-super-tired mindset, cos there's no more time to be spent grumbling about how tired you're, how boring studying is or even how much you wanna get out of this mugging world.
Because time waits for no man, everyone has an equal amount of time to do whatever, anything they want, there shouldn't be any deviations in the sense, "Why do you have more time than me?" or "I don't score as well as you because I'm much busier than you"
Oh c'mon what excuse is that?! Didn't I just say everyone has equal amount of time? It's only a matter of how you manage your time and study EFFECTIVELY, EFFICIENTLY and SMARTLY.
That's a totally different issue I don't want to talk about.
Back to the reflection. I've also thought of my friends around me. How funny, friendly, nice, nasty, naughty, (whatever adjectives) of them! Memories from Sec 1 just came back in an instant! All the stress-free moments, they're really unforgettable. Like what Jocelyn said, they're only memories, only THOSE TIMES.
What's more important is the PRESENT! NOW! How we create happiness amidst all the unhappiness. How to 苦中作乐. HAHAHA. :D I guess I'm still happy now, even though not as happy compared to when I was in Lower Sec.
I still have my friends who love me
I still have my teachers who love me
I still have my family who loves me
Remember, no matter how hard/tough the situation is, there'll always be someone out there, rooting for you, showering you with words of encouragement, telling you not to give up so easily.
Bear this in mind. Everything about gratitude, it's something you can pay one back by reaching your heart out to them, by just saying words from your heart whole-heartedly, sincerely. Those heartfelt words of yours will definitely touch many people's hearts and at the end of the day, it's not just them feeling it, your heart feels it too.
It's a great feeling. Experience it. Enjoy it.
Well, did you guys wonder why I couldn't sleep last night? It's because......
I'd a movie biathlon yesterday with Nadia! Hahaha. Caught The Taking of Pelham 123 first. Great movie, it talks about sins, seeking forgiveness too. Really enjoyed watching this movie a lot. Then, I caught Drag Me To Hell which was super duper scary I swear! Super loud sound effects and super gross scenes.
Gah, I don't wish to elaborate about this. I guess this is the reason why I couldn't fall asleep last night, until 2am/3am? I don't know! Hahaha. And of course, it definitely gave me the opportunity to reflect upon myself. ;) Then I thought of all these which I've just shared with you.
:D
4 more days to school reopen! I definitely look forward to school (except for having to wake up early x/). I miss Miss Leong, Ms Kho and Mdm Yong a lot! Realised those are the teachers of the subjects I really like? I guess the teacher counts too in me liking the subject.
Going out later. No more going out. I shall stay at home and do something then. :)
Goodbye!
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